Just one of those days again. It's a holiday and a 4 day weekend for me and all I have done is sit in my room. Bummed out and sad. Not good at all. All I really want to do is sit here and talk to my gal cuz it makes me feel like I am with her daily when I do. But I understand that she has things to do as well, she can't just sit there to just talk to me. She has work school and our kids to take care of. She means so much to me and I don't want to lose her at all. There are times O feel like crap, especially when I told her that I was afraid that some guy would hit on her if she wore a certian outfit and she would be tempted to go out with him. I feel like I hurt her when I told her that, I want her to wear what she wants to make her happy. I know that she won't do anything like that to me cuz how much we love each other. I have had bad relationships but know that this one will stick forever and I really just want to be there to protect my gal if someone even tried to do anything to her. So yes there are times that I worry about her when she goes out and I don't hear from her. I just want her to be safe, so that when I do get to come home then I can be with her. I love you so much babydoll and can't wait til our loving wedding day that I am trying to figure out when and where are we going to do it. I also miss you so much and wish that you where here with me. Things would be much better if you were here or if I was closer to home. Also I want to thank the ones that support us troops and what we do to protect our freedom. Especially a big thanks to my loving beautiful gal for how much support she has for me.