Today I am missing Brandy so badly, I really don't want to say this but I need to get it out. I feel useless right now and it is killing me so badly. Here I am in Korea for quite awhile and she is back at home, Taking care of our kid Gavin. He has had the flu this whole week, temp going from 103 to almost 105. My gal has not been getting much sleep from it all this week and was needing to call into work and say that she cant work cuz of it and now she is sick and I am not there to take good care of her. I want to be there to do so for her and I cant since I am here in Korea. She has been having rough days and am needing my hugs to make it a better day.

Now for me some reason all this week I have been having lack of sleep as well, I don't know why but I think it is cuz I want to be outta this place and be back home to take care of my loving family. Ever since brandy and I have been a couple and I have been around the kids for those two weeks, it felt like we were a couple for a long time and lived with each other for awhile. I also felt like Gavin and Ally are my kids, they are some really great kids. Ally loves me to death and thinks that I am hers and Gavin tells all of his friends about me. That makes me feel so good. I have a feeling that we are a great couple and that we will be together forever and I will be a great father figure to those two. I will try to show them the right things to do and will try my best to make it where if I do anything bad that they dont do that as well. I feel like her and I will be a married couple sometime and will not care if some people dislike it. It is my choice and hers as well. I really dont know what else to say about her but will say that she is one lucky, beautiful and loving gal to have this guy right here. I will care for her and our kids for long as I can and as long as she is wanting me to. We both have great families and our moms both get along and act the same way sometimes... Lol. I love you babydoll, miss you as well and will tell you this, I am going to be coming back home to you guys sooner or later. We both just gotta keep our chins held up so high and be strong for one another.