some moments to worry

Today has just been one of those days again. I am kinda being homesick right now. I am missing my gal so badly right now. I just wish time would go by so much quicker so that I can have her back in my arms again. I got her a promise ring and am waiting til it gets to her so that she can see it and I know that she will love it as well. I really want to pop that question to her but don't know if she would think that it is too soon. July 4th will be six months together and I feel like she is the right one for me to stay with forever. I am hoping that she gets the ring before she leaves to go to georgia for two weeks. I know that she don't want to hear this but I am worried a little bit but I know that things will be fine. I know that she will not hurt me at all cuz she loves me and I love her. She has already told me that she does want us to get married. Tells me that I am a great father to the kids. That I love alot, they mean everything to me and I don't want any harm done to them or to my beautiful babydoll.Well I hope that this week goes by quicker to have my four day weekend so that I can be able to talk to my gal for awhile and tell her how much I love her. She is meaningful to me and I dislike it when things happen to her when I am not around to help her out. She has been needing me for awhile and I just want to be home now.
Things been somewhat okay here, been really doing nothing but sitting around and then just the other day we caught four people in our unit underage drinking, we're Mp's and not drunks stupid people. Start acting like one and show all what they should do and things will be better. GRRRRRRRRR. Can't wait to be back in the states to marry the love of my life to get a nice place with her and not really worry about people in the barracks and there stupidiness. Well I won't complain anymore. I do want to put this out to my gal though. Babydoll I love you so so much and I want us to be a loving couple forever and ever. I really want to marry you right now, so when can I pop the question to you?

Frustrated typical monday to start the week up

Today was mainly a busy and some what frustrated day. First got up and had to do PT then came back and talked to my gal on skype and before I had to leave she was having an issue, I wanted to stay and help but if I did then I would've been late to work. So I had to leave her to take care of the issue. That was the first thing that I did not like at all and the bad way to start work. I had her on my mind all day long and wanted to be there for her again. But I managed to get through work and come back during lunch to talk to her again but it was hard for her to talk on the phone, so she got off to take care of the kids and then came back to let it all out to me cuz I will do my best to help her out. But that I don't know if it helped at all. Then I had to go back to work and all I was doing was standing there to get some more papers filled out which I couldnt do cuz I had another appointment at 1420. But as I was standing there I was listening to a couple guys in my platoon talking about there girlfriends back at home and how much they love them and dont want to tell them that they are dating someone else her. That was the second thing that I did not like during the day at all. I can not stand it when people cheat on there loved ones. It just makes me so pissed off and especially when there loved ones don't know about it at home. It makes me so upset right now. I love my girlfriend back at home and would never cheat on her at all. I know that she will not cheat on me as well. We are a great and loving couple that will possibly be a married couple soon with an great great family. So when I got off work and back in my room I wanted to call my gal but it was 5 pm here and 1 am there and I remembered that she said that she needed to go to bed early tonight cuz of work and all that. That was strike three of the day, I needed her and missed her so so much. She means everything to me and wished that she had a way to get here to korea to visit for a week but there are to many financial issues that not just I am having but she is having as well. But we both are strong and will get through it all. Babydoll I love you so much and cant wait to talk to you once again. I have so much to talk to you about. I truely would love us to be a married couple sometime soon. You mean all to me as do the loving kids.

Today I am missing Brandy so badly, I really don't want to say this but I need to get it out. I feel useless right now and it is killing me so badly. Here I am in Korea for quite awhile and she is back at home, Taking care of our kid Gavin. He has had the flu this whole week, temp going from 103 to almost 105. My gal has not been getting much sleep from it all this week and was needing to call into work and say that she cant work cuz of it and now she is sick and I am not there to take good care of her. I want to be there to do so for her and I cant since I am here in Korea. She has been having rough days and am needing my hugs to make it a better day.

Now for me some reason all this week I have been having lack of sleep as well, I don't know why but I think it is cuz I want to be outta this place and be back home to take care of my loving family. Ever since brandy and I have been a couple and I have been around the kids for those two weeks, it felt like we were a couple for a long time and lived with each other for awhile. I also felt like Gavin and Ally are my kids, they are some really great kids. Ally loves me to death and thinks that I am hers and Gavin tells all of his friends about me. That makes me feel so good. I have a feeling that we are a great couple and that we will be together forever and I will be a great father figure to those two. I will try to show them the right things to do and will try my best to make it where if I do anything bad that they dont do that as well. I feel like her and I will be a married couple sometime and will not care if some people dislike it. It is my choice and hers as well. I really dont know what else to say about her but will say that she is one lucky, beautiful and loving gal to have this guy right here. I will care for her and our kids for long as I can and as long as she is wanting me to. We both have great families and our moms both get along and act the same way sometimes... Lol. I love you babydoll, miss you as well and will tell you this, I am going to be coming back home to you guys sooner or later. We both just gotta keep our chins held up so high and be strong for one another.